It's weird how much the struggles Josh and I go through, remind me... that I'll never have anything quite as amazing as this.

One year, coming up soon.

And to address the future plans,

neither of us know what our future holds for us, we very well may end up anywhere in the world... We could also just end up staying in Kansas forever, but the fact of the matter... Is that I feel good about not being positive about what is going to happen in my future. I'm looking forward to "not knowing" that I'll have to stay in one silly little state on the other side of the rainbow forever, for sure.

It's weird.

He treats me poorly...
I see how he reacts when I call him out on it, and I find out... that he really does love me.
it's nice.

I hope to God that we make it.

Because I know that if we do,

we will change the world.

no joke, homez.

6 weeks until I see him.

I feel ucky...
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hopefully this week regenerates me.