It's funny how my family is the way it is.

I hate it.

I hate it.

I hate it.


.... and sometimes I feel so trapped by my predicament with Josh (he's a long distance boyfriend of a year, for those who read and don't know.)

I love him so ridiculously much, but it's so fucking scary.... especially when he's being a jerk like he is.

Will I waste my life?

Will I miss out on a great opportunity?

Sometimes I just don't want to stay in Kansas, anymore.

We'll see.